I don't usually celebrate V Day outside nor having any special feeling on this day. Now is already 12th Feb but I don't feels like celebrating at all after the incident. Maybe my feelings toward him is not as strong as before anymore. I found out myself, holding back a lot more now to keep myself save.
I believe time can heal but I really feels like not to do anything on V day!
Love Diary
Ms M
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Ms M & Mr J
Everything seems to be wonderful and sweet although we do have small arguments sometime but it is no big deal until one day his eyes keep looking at a girl when I'm sitting beside of him. Yes, it is whole day!Personally I don't think I'm a green eyed monster and I don't really care if he's looking at other girl when we are out to shopping mall or wherever there's a pretty girl walkby. Staring at a girl it is still acceptable as I don't really know her so I will complaint a while and then I will just says forget it.
I feel really embarassed and disturbed when a girl he stares at looking back at me. The girl must be thinking, why this guy with this gal keep staring at me. He has a girlfriend beside him. Maybe they start judging my outlook. This is only my thought and it may not be the same way they think of but this is how I feel. Anyway, I've overcome it as I read through a lot of articles that GUY can't stop themselves from looking at other girls that attract their eyes. It just registered to their brain to work this way. Haha... honestly, myself also looking at the pretty girls and what's wrong if he doing so? NO BIG DEAL!!!
BUT, what really makes MS M upset is that, he's staring a girl during a gathering for whole day. Yes, god damn whole day. I try to tell myself not to think too much and cannot be too sensitive on this. We are having talks and drinks on a round dining table with friends. I was seated beside him and the girl seated opposite us. His eyes never turn to me but only at her. When she walks away, she will keep looking at the door whereabout is her. Is this making any girls sick? I keep everything inside and stop myself from thinking about it but after few hours, I really can't do it anymore and leave the table. I run myself to the frontyard and trying to cool off myself there. After 10-15 minutes, he found me at last but I don't feel like talking or seeing him. I don't want to have any arguments or unhappy scene in front of so many people, so I just keep telling myself that I'm too sensitive. I followed him back to the dining area without saying much. After a while, he's asking me whether I want to see the dog then I answered why not. The girl she's staring at is there playing with the dog. His eyes again never go away from her!!! As usual, I chose to escape. I went in back to the house and he followed me. He bring me out for a ciggie break and a walk. He feel something is not right and he wants to know why I'm so upset that time but I never say a single word as I still think, I think I'm too sensitive.
So we have wonderful time playing at the frontyard, looking at the greens, chatting about everything. In the evening, I went to have my bath and after that, it is dinner time! Everything seems back to normal now until the girl she's looking at whole day re-emerge to the scene. His eyes staring at her no matter where she are!!!!!!!!!! For god sake, I don't want to have a glance at all how he's looking at her! I don't want to see! Furthermore, I don't think she's pretty or attractive!
After the dinner, we have a walk and talk about this issue. I no longer think the problem is on me but on him. I confronted him and he finally admitted it. He was drawn to her in a very natural way and when she talks, he feels like listening. I was so angry, upset and disappointing. I feel like is that I'm that ugly or my voice is that irritating!
Thinking over, WHY do I have to think that way! It's not worth to have this kind of feeling because of him. I will set him free to do whatever shit he wants but I will not lose my dignity because of him. I'm proud to be miss M and Mr J has been forgiven but I can never forget!
Life is short and I don't want to be unhappy anymore because of him! Not worth!
Love Diary
Ms M
Monday, January 07, 2008
H a p p y . N e w . Y e a r
It was a depressing, miserable, heartbreaking YEAR 2007 but on the other hand it was also a cheerful and joyful year. Hey Ms M, wake up!!! You are not writing sensibly. It is a confusing statement! Hahaha... Practically YES it is confusing but it was how I describe it. Let me recollect what happened last year.
Basically it starts off with seeing fireworks. Numbers of drinking, partying, clubbing and travelling. I went through a breakup and he's a Mr. Nice Guy which gave me everything I wanted but it doesn't work out. I really appreciate the things that he done for me for past two years. He's still a very supportive friend of mine which I will appreciate him for sure.
I get to know a very special friend named Mr. B. I was claimed to be an arrogant person by him eventually we are quite a closed friend now, as I can talk anything to him outright. He's going oversea for few months for his new assignment in new company, but I'm not going to cry (=p) cause from time to time, he'll be back to visit us but still, I'll miss you!
Here comes a very special person in my life that I met in a club, named "J". I can't imagine myself talking, walking, holding hands, cuddling, laughing, crying, watching tv, cooking and dreaming with him. He shares my everything. He's always a good listener when I'm whining. He always tries to change himself when I'm complaining. I really appreciate his effort and thanks for his love. Hope this will last for many years to come. Naive thinking... yes... I really don't want to be too realistic now... I just want to enjoy and be grateful of the things that he had done for me and. Love ya!
My sister pregnant at last... I'm going to be Auntie M soon and my niece name is Chloe. It's the best'est thing happened in YEAR 2007. I can't wait for the beautiful princess to breathe the air and taste the water, listen to the beautiful voices, see colorful earth and walk on the ground. Wish she can be the healthiest baby on earth.
I had the very first family trip to oversea cause most of the time, we travel on our own. It's a nice experience and we had a wonderful time there. I helped my sister make up before we go club at Sugar and advise my brother on shirts to buy as souvenier for his gal friend. Eat together and run together while raining. Accompany my bro buy XXX magazine without parental guidance at night and it turn out to be an ugly woman posting. It's just so fun! Go 711 to buy 'siu mai' and eat it just like any other hongkie do. The most memorable part is the fireworks at Disney Land.
It's a wonderful year, full of tears and joy!!! Is that what we call life?
For YEAR 2008, I wish everyone to stay healthy and joyful as always. PEACE!
- eNd -
Basically it starts off with seeing fireworks. Numbers of drinking, partying, clubbing and travelling. I went through a breakup and he's a Mr. Nice Guy which gave me everything I wanted but it doesn't work out. I really appreciate the things that he done for me for past two years. He's still a very supportive friend of mine which I will appreciate him for sure.I get to know a very special friend named Mr. B. I was claimed to be an arrogant person by him eventually we are quite a closed friend now, as I can talk anything to him outright. He's going oversea for few months for his new assignment in new company, but I'm not going to cry (=p) cause from time to time, he'll be back to visit us but still, I'll miss you!
Here comes a very special person in my life that I met in a club, named "J". I can't imagine myself talking, walking, holding hands, cuddling, laughing, crying, watching tv, cooking and dreaming with him. He shares my everything. He's always a good listener when I'm whining. He always tries to change himself when I'm complaining. I really appreciate his effort and thanks for his love. Hope this will last for many years to come. Naive thinking... yes... I really don't want to be too realistic now... I just want to enjoy and be grateful of the things that he had done for me and. Love ya!
My sister pregnant at last... I'm going to be Auntie M soon and my niece name is Chloe. It's the best'est thing happened in YEAR 2007. I can't wait for the beautiful princess to breathe the air and taste the water, listen to the beautiful voices, see colorful earth and walk on the ground. Wish she can be the healthiest baby on earth.
I had the very first family trip to oversea cause most of the time, we travel on our own. It's a nice experience and we had a wonderful time there. I helped my sister make up before we go club at Sugar and advise my brother on shirts to buy as souvenier for his gal friend. Eat together and run together while raining. Accompany my bro buy XXX magazine without parental guidance at night and it turn out to be an ugly woman posting. It's just so fun! Go 711 to buy 'siu mai' and eat it just like any other hongkie do. The most memorable part is the fireworks at Disney Land.
It's a wonderful year, full of tears and joy!!! Is that what we call life?
For YEAR 2008, I wish everyone to stay healthy and joyful as always. PEACE!
- eNd -
+ C r o ss ro a d S +
How many crossroads do we walk by and made choices in life? Why do I ask? Well, I'm currently at the crossroads and try to figure out the path ahead that I'm going to choose. I was at the same situation before for my relationship and now come to my career. Everything is so stable now, i become skilled at the job I'm doing everyday, gain a lot of diplomatic skills since I joined 'X' company and I'm currently finding something new to venture. Somehow or rather, something inside me stopping me to do so, I always think I need to learn more on the current responsibility that I'm holding. Shall I give myself another year?Out of nowhere, there are a lot of work opportunities from other department and company which makes the matter worst. Around next month, I hope everything will be settled. I'm not rushing into making any conclusive and drastic decision at this particular point of time. Go slow, and I know I can do it... be strong... as always!
Crossroads Gal in KL
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
T R U E . L O V E
What is true love? Does it exists? When we are in a relationship, we will tell how affectionate we are with each other but it just won't last. People said "True love will last untill your last breathe in this world". I wonder how true is the statement and I believe majority of people out there doubt about it as well.
True love from parents is the most genuine love. They are there for us since we were born and give everything they can to make sure we live healthily and happily without requesting any in return.
I was so into someone until I lost myself including my pride and dignity. I forgot the feeling on how a guy should respect a woman. I was really naive back there but without the experience, I will never grow. The funny part when I see him now, I will feel sad because we were once so close with each other and we are now total stranger. *knock my head... i'm thinking too much, WAKE UP... *
I've found 'someone', I'm not sure the ending of this relationship but does it matter? 'Someone' is definitely not romantic type but 'someone' just have something that attracts me but it's so abstract that I can't describe it in words. I'm happy to have 'someone' with me now... 520
- e N d -
Thursday, August 09, 2007
~*~*~ Mad Day ~*~*~
the reason i blog immediately right after i went home and took my bath is that today, many things happenned and my emotion of the day just like roller coaster... i don't know how should i digest it!!!
first of all, i spent my late noon and evening chatting with M and B... first time i see M on online status in MSN as M always on BUSY status in fact she's not =p ... i took the screenshot of it... sound stupid oppps but i did it and have lotsa fun... then the other record is that on the group chat session... our conversation last for 50 pages after B copy pasted it on the MWord... hahaha... I'm not sure what we crapping there but really very HIGH... ahhahaha word that B like to use very much...
then i left office around 6PM and head to Chilis... nightmare starts here... i'm the first one who arrive with my colleague J, then of course we wait to be seated and here come the waitress... i told her i need table for 12 person... then she reply with very soft tone as good as whispering with English that hard for me intepret... then finally J got what she meant which i'm still blur and J lead me to L shape seat which is the waiting area for patrons... then after few minutes, i asked " why are sitting here for?" then J answered "she said we have to wait all 12 ppl arrived only we can get the table to be seated". gosh... at this point of time.... i'm really getting furious as i don't understand what kind of ridiculous policy is that and tell J " hey it's ridiculous for us to sit here and wait everybody to arrive in fact some of them will come late!!!! doesn't make sense rite" and i just walk straight to the waitress calmly and say " excuse me, it's impossible for us to wait until everyone arrive only we get our seat as some of them still working in the office and might come late, maybe around 8 something, so do you mind make an arrangement and get us a table for twelve person?" the waitress replied " sorry, we can't do that, as our policy is that we need all the guest arrived only we can make the arrangement" then here my another colleague come which is F and A... they asked what happened and I explain to them, they feel the same and made the same complaint... at the end the waitress call her manager to explain it to us... the manager seems not bothered by our complain and walk straight to us and tell us this is our policy and what he can do is to arrange a table for four and when all arrived, he will get everyone seated... then F replied " then everyone we will in different group sitting in different table" again he insisted that it is the policy... then of course angry me standing impatiently and sarcastically tell the manager " do you expect us to sit in different table and celebrate birthday together?" then the manager still insist that we can only get table for four and will rearrange when more to arrive... exasperated sigh... then we finnaly give in and get seated first...
so i ordered a kilkenny and everyone ordered their individual drinks... after that, a moron waiter insited me to show them and identification card... this is the most funny part... can be the joke of the year... the waiter said he need my IC to prove that im old enough to drink alcohol!!!!!!! wat the f#$%... they are really annoying!!!! this is really testing my EQ and the worst part, i didnt bring my driving license and IC with me... so i gave up on the kilkenny to J and drink mango juice... nice one chilis!!!! excellence!!! then we got relocated to a bigger table which can fit 8 person... this is the biggest table they have.. but we are really pissed of with the customer service there and we decided to head to Monte's instead... damn pissed... NO MORE CHILIS!!!! the place suck to the max!!!!
so here are the happy moment... i'm the happiest one thou cause i can drink beer and smoke in Monte's!!!! hahahaha.... almost 8 something everyone arrived at last and order our own individual food... have a really nice chat over there and introduce everyone to ms K... sometimes when K speak something in canto which those banana colleagues very hard to understand... they all will only har... wat... wakakakaka stupid... oops i'm one of them too but i'm better... =p
do you think my day ended here... hahaha you are wrong!!! half way to SS3 i got a call from K asking me to keep talking to her... then i said i dont have hands free with me and due to i'm a bit drunk... i really can't talk on the phone while driving... the usual me should able to do that.. then i said i call her back in 10 minutes... when i call her, she tell me that she can't breathe... I'm really panic this time, head straight to the location she told me.... this is really scary and it is the first time of my life facing this kind of situation... on the way there, i tried to call her many times but she didn't pick up the phone... i'm so so so worried... and then i sms SJ up cause i know he's watching movie so i don't dare to call him... but after a while there are still no reply from him and i'm really so frustrated cause still can't get in touch with K... so i called M, and he willing to help... i asked him to keep calling K so that you can make sure she is well enough to pick up call... but she didnt.... so i drive as fast as i can and after the tol i saw her car with emergency signal on... this is really freaking me off... then come down from my car and walk straight to her.. but the door is locked... so i keep knocking on the window and she seems to be not answering.... i'm really panic and don't know what to do next... but after a while she unlock the door and she really not breathing well... as though like she is having asthma... so scary man!!!! then i call M to come immediately cause i really don't know what else i can do... then i just keep on try to help her but i know ntg i can do... when M come... i feel much more better cause i really dont know how to face this kind of situation... after around 30-45 mins... she feels better and M escort her home... at last SJ called but it's a bit too late...
gosh... hectic day!!!
first of all, i spent my late noon and evening chatting with M and B... first time i see M on online status in MSN as M always on BUSY status in fact she's not =p ... i took the screenshot of it... sound stupid oppps but i did it and have lotsa fun... then the other record is that on the group chat session... our conversation last for 50 pages after B copy pasted it on the MWord... hahaha... I'm not sure what we crapping there but really very HIGH... ahhahaha word that B like to use very much...
then i left office around 6PM and head to Chilis... nightmare starts here... i'm the first one who arrive with my colleague J, then of course we wait to be seated and here come the waitress... i told her i need table for 12 person... then she reply with very soft tone as good as whispering with English that hard for me intepret... then finally J got what she meant which i'm still blur and J lead me to L shape seat which is the waiting area for patrons... then after few minutes, i asked " why are sitting here for?" then J answered "she said we have to wait all 12 ppl arrived only we can get the table to be seated". gosh... at this point of time.... i'm really getting furious as i don't understand what kind of ridiculous policy is that and tell J " hey it's ridiculous for us to sit here and wait everybody to arrive in fact some of them will come late!!!! doesn't make sense rite" and i just walk straight to the waitress calmly and say " excuse me, it's impossible for us to wait until everyone arrive only we get our seat as some of them still working in the office and might come late, maybe around 8 something, so do you mind make an arrangement and get us a table for twelve person?" the waitress replied " sorry, we can't do that, as our policy is that we need all the guest arrived only we can make the arrangement" then here my another colleague come which is F and A... they asked what happened and I explain to them, they feel the same and made the same complaint... at the end the waitress call her manager to explain it to us... the manager seems not bothered by our complain and walk straight to us and tell us this is our policy and what he can do is to arrange a table for four and when all arrived, he will get everyone seated... then F replied " then everyone we will in different group sitting in different table" again he insisted that it is the policy... then of course angry me standing impatiently and sarcastically tell the manager " do you expect us to sit in different table and celebrate birthday together?" then the manager still insist that we can only get table for four and will rearrange when more to arrive... exasperated sigh... then we finnaly give in and get seated first...
so i ordered a kilkenny and everyone ordered their individual drinks... after that, a moron waiter insited me to show them and identification card... this is the most funny part... can be the joke of the year... the waiter said he need my IC to prove that im old enough to drink alcohol!!!!!!! wat the f#$%... they are really annoying!!!! this is really testing my EQ and the worst part, i didnt bring my driving license and IC with me... so i gave up on the kilkenny to J and drink mango juice... nice one chilis!!!! excellence!!! then we got relocated to a bigger table which can fit 8 person... this is the biggest table they have.. but we are really pissed of with the customer service there and we decided to head to Monte's instead... damn pissed... NO MORE CHILIS!!!! the place suck to the max!!!!
so here are the happy moment... i'm the happiest one thou cause i can drink beer and smoke in Monte's!!!! hahahaha.... almost 8 something everyone arrived at last and order our own individual food... have a really nice chat over there and introduce everyone to ms K... sometimes when K speak something in canto which those banana colleagues very hard to understand... they all will only har... wat... wakakakaka stupid... oops i'm one of them too but i'm better... =p
do you think my day ended here... hahaha you are wrong!!! half way to SS3 i got a call from K asking me to keep talking to her... then i said i dont have hands free with me and due to i'm a bit drunk... i really can't talk on the phone while driving... the usual me should able to do that.. then i said i call her back in 10 minutes... when i call her, she tell me that she can't breathe... I'm really panic this time, head straight to the location she told me.... this is really scary and it is the first time of my life facing this kind of situation... on the way there, i tried to call her many times but she didn't pick up the phone... i'm so so so worried... and then i sms SJ up cause i know he's watching movie so i don't dare to call him... but after a while there are still no reply from him and i'm really so frustrated cause still can't get in touch with K... so i called M, and he willing to help... i asked him to keep calling K so that you can make sure she is well enough to pick up call... but she didnt.... so i drive as fast as i can and after the tol i saw her car with emergency signal on... this is really freaking me off... then come down from my car and walk straight to her.. but the door is locked... so i keep knocking on the window and she seems to be not answering.... i'm really panic and don't know what to do next... but after a while she unlock the door and she really not breathing well... as though like she is having asthma... so scary man!!!! then i call M to come immediately cause i really don't know what else i can do... then i just keep on try to help her but i know ntg i can do... when M come... i feel much more better cause i really dont know how to face this kind of situation... after around 30-45 mins... she feels better and M escort her home... at last SJ called but it's a bit too late...
gosh... hectic day!!!
Thursday, May 17, 2007
Hate myself for falling so much
I'm tired... i'm so so tired... i love you... really hate myself for loving you so much...
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Party Party Party!!!
Finally, I fall sick now after endless of partying nights. Well, i'm still looking forward for more to come but I really need more rest during weekdays so that I have more energy during the weekend.
-Party Babe!!! -
-Party Babe!!! -
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Good News!!!
Congratulations to Alice who just gave birth to a new life although I still do not know is a baby girl or boy but it is a greatest news I'd ever get from my friend!!! She's brave and beautiful but I still can't wait to visit her this weekend. She must be very tired and having a good rest in the hospital. I wonder is a he or she.
To Alice: Wish you have a speedy recovery, healthy baby, back to your perfect bodyline, and pamper by the whole world!!!
- END -
To Alice: Wish you have a speedy recovery, healthy baby, back to your perfect bodyline, and pamper by the whole world!!!
- END -
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
- F A I R N E S S -
Some time people is very hard headed towards the word "FAIRNESS". Yes, I'm one of the idiot! Actually from my point of view, I don't understand the existence of this word in the first place! The first day we breathe, the world seems so beautiful. The longer we live, the dark side of the world seems to emerse more clearly. Why I said that, I will explain later but first and foremost, I would really like to know to origin of this word. Where should I start? Meaning of "Fairness"? Relate very closely to another moronic word "Justice"... equality...
So I went dictionary.com website and perform a word search, there I type aiF Aee I Rrr eN yeE eS eS (Indian wannabe)! Yay! Fairness. Why I pick this website? It is because I don't have an Oxford Dictionary at home, need to pay in order to use OED website as online dictionary, and it is quite complete. I think dictionary.com have to pay me for being so hard sell. Opps... back to the defination of "Fairness". I mulled over the website and below is one of the defination that I picked:
free from bias, dishonesty, or injustice: a fair decision; a fair judge.
After few minutes, I would like to create a sentence with all the above words. Human are not free from bias, everyone tell lies which leads to dishonesty, men and women, children and adults alike, injustice decision made everyday no matter is from the judges, juries or even the police force whereby bad people still free from punishment although they are unethical, violated laws, commit crime and it only shows one thing, the world will never have fair decision or not even to mention fair judgement! Gosh... at last, I can express my dissatisfaction in just one sentence! o o o ... okay... feeling lot more better now... It's time for my to find the origin.
I type wikipedia.com this time. After a few seconds the page loaded and I type "FAIRNESS" on the search field and it pops up the origin of Justice. See... I told you, it is very much related to the justice! So I glance through the whole page. While scrolling down, I spotted the word Fairnes and I stop my finger from scrolling down using the mouse, but sadly, I still can't find the origin!!! Forget it!!!
hmmm... it's time to tell you why I pick the word today! I'm came back from work very late today. It's almost 12am. I drive my car and when I was few hundred meters away, I spotted around 10 cement bags laying the place where I usually park my car. I mean how can they put those things in front of my house, furthermore they should have known that I need more space to park my car. The "THEY" means my moronic neighbor who is rich enough to renovate their house! So I tell myself, if I still see those things when I'm back from work again tomorrow, I will either kill my neighbor's dog, scratch his car or tell them to put all those rubbish aside. Of course I choose the third option. I'm not a mad dog!
The story haven't finish yet. I can't afford to allocate any time for surfing on the internet today during working hour, so my itchy hands search for the internet to read news paper online after dinner. The headline news, increase of bumiputras equity! First of all, I'm not racist, but why do they need this kind of privillege? If they are good, why do they need protection from the government? Am I Malaysian, I wonder? Oh no... I'm a chinese that live in Malaysia, that's why. Hello we are citizen of Malaysia! CRAP!!!!!!!!
Here is the saddest part, one of the victim riding motorcycle was being kick down and get robbed. He work very hard to get the salary he earned and those stupid doofuss doing nothing but to robbed other people money. The victim decided to leave the job he had in Singapore and return back to his hometown.
There's too many thing which is unfair and injustice in this whole wide world. What can this tiny little human can do?
Note: Don't worry about me, this is just part of the way of releasing stress after long hour work. Balance of life is the best thing that I should learn. I still seeking it. Hopefully one day I understand the balance of life more and obtain it.
So I went dictionary.com website and perform a word search, there I type aiF Aee I Rrr eN yeE eS eS (Indian wannabe)! Yay! Fairness. Why I pick this website? It is because I don't have an Oxford Dictionary at home, need to pay in order to use OED website as online dictionary, and it is quite complete. I think dictionary.com have to pay me for being so hard sell. Opps... back to the defination of "Fairness". I mulled over the website and below is one of the defination that I picked:
free from bias, dishonesty, or injustice: a fair decision; a fair judge.
After few minutes, I would like to create a sentence with all the above words. Human are not free from bias, everyone tell lies which leads to dishonesty, men and women, children and adults alike, injustice decision made everyday no matter is from the judges, juries or even the police force whereby bad people still free from punishment although they are unethical, violated laws, commit crime and it only shows one thing, the world will never have fair decision or not even to mention fair judgement! Gosh... at last, I can express my dissatisfaction in just one sentence! o o o ... okay... feeling lot more better now... It's time for my to find the origin.
I type wikipedia.com this time. After a few seconds the page loaded and I type "FAIRNESS" on the search field and it pops up the origin of Justice. See... I told you, it is very much related to the justice! So I glance through the whole page. While scrolling down, I spotted the word Fairnes and I stop my finger from scrolling down using the mouse, but sadly, I still can't find the origin!!! Forget it!!!
hmmm... it's time to tell you why I pick the word today! I'm came back from work very late today. It's almost 12am. I drive my car and when I was few hundred meters away, I spotted around 10 cement bags laying the place where I usually park my car. I mean how can they put those things in front of my house, furthermore they should have known that I need more space to park my car. The "THEY" means my moronic neighbor who is rich enough to renovate their house! So I tell myself, if I still see those things when I'm back from work again tomorrow, I will either kill my neighbor's dog, scratch his car or tell them to put all those rubbish aside. Of course I choose the third option. I'm not a mad dog!
The story haven't finish yet. I can't afford to allocate any time for surfing on the internet today during working hour, so my itchy hands search for the internet to read news paper online after dinner. The headline news, increase of bumiputras equity! First of all, I'm not racist, but why do they need this kind of privillege? If they are good, why do they need protection from the government? Am I Malaysian, I wonder? Oh no... I'm a chinese that live in Malaysia, that's why. Hello we are citizen of Malaysia! CRAP!!!!!!!!
Here is the saddest part, one of the victim riding motorcycle was being kick down and get robbed. He work very hard to get the salary he earned and those stupid doofuss doing nothing but to robbed other people money. The victim decided to leave the job he had in Singapore and return back to his hometown.
There's too many thing which is unfair and injustice in this whole wide world. What can this tiny little human can do?
Note: Don't worry about me, this is just part of the way of releasing stress after long hour work. Balance of life is the best thing that I should learn. I still seeking it. Hopefully one day I understand the balance of life more and obtain it.
Thursday, September 28, 2006
OMG!!!!
This is bad... very bad... I do not know where to start off with because this two months too many things had happened... both happy and sad thing... sigh... how should I start?
Let's do a summary:
-Penang Trip
First gulp of blue label!!!!!!
-Screw up in one of the given task!
-I'd a wonderful and memorable birthday celebration.
-Successfully completed the shit task which before that failed to do so
-Heineken Thirst Party - Armanda Groove Sound System
Arrive at Garry's house earlier to drink more liquor before going to the rave. We get high a bit but upon arrival to the rave party, I can't feel it anymore. Dance and sweat until 1-2am then we leave the rave and head to teochew porridge. I think by the time we go home it's already 2-3AM.
-Neway Karaoke
Everyone must be wondering what so special about this event since I go for Karaoke almost every week. Hehehe... the point here is that we sang for 7 hours. From 5pm to 12am close to 1am.
-PD Trip
As usual all get drunk and play like mad!
-Fortune telling by Zodiac
Fun fun fun and will take note of something which I really need to change!
As normal human like me, after going to so many places and did not have sufficient rest, at last I fall sick last week and my voice still not fully recover yet. Hey hey no worries... I got a lot sick cat companion so no worries. =p
I think I shall update the blog more frequently now so I can get more details in sharing my sadness and happiness of my life with everyone. ^.^
-End-
Let's do a summary:
-Penang Trip
First gulp of blue label!!!!!!
-Screw up in one of the given task!
-I'd a wonderful and memorable birthday celebration.
-Successfully completed the shit task which before that failed to do so
-Heineken Thirst Party - Armanda Groove Sound System
Arrive at Garry's house earlier to drink more liquor before going to the rave. We get high a bit but upon arrival to the rave party, I can't feel it anymore. Dance and sweat until 1-2am then we leave the rave and head to teochew porridge. I think by the time we go home it's already 2-3AM.
-Neway Karaoke
Everyone must be wondering what so special about this event since I go for Karaoke almost every week. Hehehe... the point here is that we sang for 7 hours. From 5pm to 12am close to 1am.
-PD Trip
As usual all get drunk and play like mad!
-Fortune telling by Zodiac
Fun fun fun and will take note of something which I really need to change!
As normal human like me, after going to so many places and did not have sufficient rest, at last I fall sick last week and my voice still not fully recover yet. Hey hey no worries... I got a lot sick cat companion so no worries. =p
I think I shall update the blog more frequently now so I can get more details in sharing my sadness and happiness of my life with everyone. ^.^
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Wednesday, August 02, 2006
*Off the track*
Hokay... it's been almost a month since the last post. Don't get me wrong, it's not that I'm busy and have no time to update it but the word "LAZY" suites me more. Ha! Well let's forget about everything about work related matters which always make me feels miserable, but I should talk about my trip to Penang this weekend.
This is the first trip that we are going to have this year and we gather a total of eight buddies to be on this trip. Here's the plan, we start off at 2AM... yeah you didn't get me wrong... it is 2AM but not 2PM... sound ridiculous? anything is possible or nothing is impossible for us... MAD! The first stop will be at Jln Ipoh for supper and we shall start our journey to Penang after that.
I hope no one will fluff our trip. I just want to enjoy a getaway with my bunch of "bestest" of the best friends... hahaha...
Well that's it... time for me to get some rest... ciao...
-END-
This is the first trip that we are going to have this year and we gather a total of eight buddies to be on this trip. Here's the plan, we start off at 2AM... yeah you didn't get me wrong... it is 2AM but not 2PM... sound ridiculous? anything is possible or nothing is impossible for us... MAD! The first stop will be at Jln Ipoh for supper and we shall start our journey to Penang after that.
I hope no one will fluff our trip. I just want to enjoy a getaway with my bunch of "bestest" of the best friends... hahaha...
Well that's it... time for me to get some rest... ciao...
-END-
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
Say No for hopping job
I mulled over on the job offer and I'd decided to say NO! I do not want myself gone out on a limb while I'm not able to commit the hour and discipline that the job requires. I have no hurry to change another job although I'm not happy with my current superior. Of course I do understand wherever you go, there's people you dont like and it depends on how you handles it. I do think I handle it too emotionally which somehow I think it is immatured.
Perhaps just treat it as lesson learned and moving on to a better person is the best that I should do. I'm gaining back passion on work lately. I starts to communicate more with my so called "TS" although she always deligate job to me which I'd no idea with while she still the same old day pretending busy.
The good thing is that, I came to office on time today, 9AM! Hahaha are you dumbfounded when you read this =p So while I'm walking in to the office, one of my collegue gave me a small present which really surprised me. She told me this is a token of appreciation for the KT session. I'm astonished! I don't know what to say next and walk away. Back to my usual working place and I look at the present and question myself, what I did? Then I message her and apologise for reacting strangely. Appreciation needs to be shown in this circumstances, so I say "Thank you so much and you really need not to do this as it is part of my responsibility to KT my job to you". Well she brighten up my day although it's nothing to other people but it's an important gift to me. I really appreciates it...
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Perhaps just treat it as lesson learned and moving on to a better person is the best that I should do. I'm gaining back passion on work lately. I starts to communicate more with my so called "TS" although she always deligate job to me which I'd no idea with while she still the same old day pretending busy.
The good thing is that, I came to office on time today, 9AM! Hahaha are you dumbfounded when you read this =p So while I'm walking in to the office, one of my collegue gave me a small present which really surprised me. She told me this is a token of appreciation for the KT session. I'm astonished! I don't know what to say next and walk away. Back to my usual working place and I look at the present and question myself, what I did? Then I message her and apologise for reacting strangely. Appreciation needs to be shown in this circumstances, so I say "Thank you so much and you really need not to do this as it is part of my responsibility to KT my job to you". Well she brighten up my day although it's nothing to other people but it's an important gift to me. I really appreciates it...
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Monday, July 03, 2006
Brazil Lost in Quater Final match =(
WTF! Brazil lost again to France just like eight years ago! For me, this year World Cup has ended for good. Argentina lost to Germany and Brazil lost to France. Their World Cup journey ended much too fast and unpredictable. At least Argentina put out a good fight with Germany and I think that match was the most exciting match for 2006 World Cup. As for Brazil, I really can't see their effort to fight France hence, both striker not performing at all. Sucks...
Thursday, June 29, 2006
Sa Sa Pau
Sa Sa Pau is a nick name of my beloved dumbo colleague. He set up his own blog site and I'm here to advertise it. Here's the link. Please show your support to him by posting as much comments as you can. He's creative but mostly creative stuff is pretty hard to understand. I mulled over his blog and I still can't get what's the Goof Day means.
Note: For those who is n0t so good in English like me, you may want to get a dictionary while reading his blog which is full of CRAP!
Note: For those who is n0t so good in English like me, you may want to get a dictionary while reading his blog which is full of CRAP!
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
*~*~*~*~ Career Path ~*~*~*~*
27th June 2006
I go office five days a week, average nine hours a day without any direction and vision of my future. What's my specialisation? I'm carrying a name "IT Operation Specialist" but there's nothing I specialise in. What team I belong to? Am I capable enough to perform in work? Is this what I want? All these question cause me having imsonia for few days.
At this point of time, I don't really know what I want and I believe this is the stage that I need to make a crucial decision that works for my future career path. The question is whether you want to be a technical person or something which work between IT and Finance.
I had an informal phone conversation with my Manager yesterday night. I talked about all the uneasy feelings I'm having in my current team and wanted to join IPC team in different account. He told me that I had the potential to join the team but maturity in work is not there yet. He advises me to join IM team which manages project, people and costing if I would really looking forward for IPC role.
I'm afraid of people having the perception that I'm not serious in my work and hopping from one team to another. Is this the way I carry myself that cause them to have this kind of image on their thinking? To be honest, I really don't know what I want. I joined HP as a normal administrator which just producing report and hosting weekly meetings. Now my title changed to IT Operation Specialist after joining Customer Access, Server Backup and UNIX team. Ironically, when I look behind, my career path is empty! Pathethic huh... yeah I think it is...
I totally agree to all the things my manager told me and I'm digesting his advise which is so helpful. He told me not to afraid to voice out if you really don't like the work I'm doing and don't waste your time although you are still young. If I show dedication to work in IM team, maybe in one year time I might able to join IPC team. This is depends on how much I could absorb and grow in that team for one year.
The statement that I like from my manager is that he told me "When I did something wrong, you point it out to me, make sure my word is convincing then you're ready for IPC role". He's really a good manager that shape me who am I in this company today. I hope this is not a WINDY promises but well in this society there are no such word call "Guaranteed" and it has to based on my own ability or will to get what I want.
Passion in work is another issue on the other hand. I'm seeking something I have passion on, so I do need to bring my lazy bum to work every morning without a reason. I must make sure the decision I made is what I want from all the option I have and don't ever question myself again, I mean within 1-2 years time.
It's time to make up my mind to decide which path should I go...
I go office five days a week, average nine hours a day without any direction and vision of my future. What's my specialisation? I'm carrying a name "IT Operation Specialist" but there's nothing I specialise in. What team I belong to? Am I capable enough to perform in work? Is this what I want? All these question cause me having imsonia for few days.
At this point of time, I don't really know what I want and I believe this is the stage that I need to make a crucial decision that works for my future career path. The question is whether you want to be a technical person or something which work between IT and Finance.
I had an informal phone conversation with my Manager yesterday night. I talked about all the uneasy feelings I'm having in my current team and wanted to join IPC team in different account. He told me that I had the potential to join the team but maturity in work is not there yet. He advises me to join IM team which manages project, people and costing if I would really looking forward for IPC role.
I'm afraid of people having the perception that I'm not serious in my work and hopping from one team to another. Is this the way I carry myself that cause them to have this kind of image on their thinking? To be honest, I really don't know what I want. I joined HP as a normal administrator which just producing report and hosting weekly meetings. Now my title changed to IT Operation Specialist after joining Customer Access, Server Backup and UNIX team. Ironically, when I look behind, my career path is empty! Pathethic huh... yeah I think it is...
I totally agree to all the things my manager told me and I'm digesting his advise which is so helpful. He told me not to afraid to voice out if you really don't like the work I'm doing and don't waste your time although you are still young. If I show dedication to work in IM team, maybe in one year time I might able to join IPC team. This is depends on how much I could absorb and grow in that team for one year.
The statement that I like from my manager is that he told me "When I did something wrong, you point it out to me, make sure my word is convincing then you're ready for IPC role". He's really a good manager that shape me who am I in this company today. I hope this is not a WINDY promises but well in this society there are no such word call "Guaranteed" and it has to based on my own ability or will to get what I want.
Passion in work is another issue on the other hand. I'm seeking something I have passion on, so I do need to bring my lazy bum to work every morning without a reason. I must make sure the decision I made is what I want from all the option I have and don't ever question myself again, I mean within 1-2 years time.
It's time to make up my mind to decide which path should I go...
Monday, June 26, 2006
Red Wine in Medesto's @.@
25th June 2006
Had a relax night out at Medosto's KL yesterday. We ordered a pizza and a bottle of Merlot red wine. We watched football match between England and Ecuador (hope I spell it correctly). It's an exciting games and the funniest thing is that Lisa seems more frustrated that Garry when they missed the chance to goal, while Garry is the one who made a bet for England to win . Funny... Lisa wore a red top with white in color three quarter trousers, which made her as if she's one of the England supporter there, in fact, it's just a coincidence.
What a night... I do enjoy it very much and I think I'll miss the atmosphere of football fever once the world cup ends.
Had a relax night out at Medosto's KL yesterday. We ordered a pizza and a bottle of Merlot red wine. We watched football match between England and Ecuador (hope I spell it correctly). It's an exciting games and the funniest thing is that Lisa seems more frustrated that Garry when they missed the chance to goal, while Garry is the one who made a bet for England to win . Funny... Lisa wore a red top with white in color three quarter trousers, which made her as if she's one of the England supporter there, in fact, it's just a coincidence.
What a night... I do enjoy it very much and I think I'll miss the atmosphere of football fever once the world cup ends.
Thursday, June 22, 2006
I had a bad day!
21st June 2006
Clock ticking, few hours passed since i fell asleep at 11PM yesterday but still, I'm in my dreamland, on my comfy bed, hugging body length role pillow, resting myself. I was awake at 7a.m. due to a "nature call" that force me to bring my lazy bum up from the bed and walk sluggishly to the restroom. Sigh I hate this!
While I'm doing something private at restroom, my mum walk straight one floor up, stepping outside my restroom and tell me that someone broke into my car around 5AM. My brain seems not functioning and in semi-conscious state, well as I'm still halfly at my dreamland, I did not give any response to her. After 5minutes, I starts to think back what the crap is my mum talking about? Someone broke into my car? AT 5AM?
Thinking of it, my heart starts beating fast and oxygen pumping up to my brain. I felt lost and wanted to know more about the thing that my mum told me. I starts to threw a lot of questions to my mum such as how,when and what? After that, I flee to see how bad is the condition of my car. I saw my left back seat window was lowered and small little triangle shape window was smashed.
My mum told me she had log a police report at morning 5 something, so I cannot touch anything on that car yet. She said the police will only come around 10AM. *Exasperated Sigh* What the hell is wrong with the police force in our country. I do understands that this is not a big case or involve someone who dies but still, a normal citizen who made a report, as a police force you should come over on timely manner. What if they caught the culprit which might not far away from our house? Riduculous bunch of useless crap! This is how they treated tax payer!
Oh yea... about the condition of my car... erm... *Thinking the best words to describe how the situation would like*. There are lots of small pieces glass scattered around my car seats. All the things on the left compartment under the dashboard was taken out and left untouched on front left seat as told by my mum. Back seat was force opened as the stealer try to find something valuable at my car rear. What a mess! @.@
Luckily I spent only RM165 to fix everything which some how still paid by my mum. What a bad and tiring day!
Clock ticking, few hours passed since i fell asleep at 11PM yesterday but still, I'm in my dreamland, on my comfy bed, hugging body length role pillow, resting myself. I was awake at 7a.m. due to a "nature call" that force me to bring my lazy bum up from the bed and walk sluggishly to the restroom. Sigh I hate this!
While I'm doing something private at restroom, my mum walk straight one floor up, stepping outside my restroom and tell me that someone broke into my car around 5AM. My brain seems not functioning and in semi-conscious state, well as I'm still halfly at my dreamland, I did not give any response to her. After 5minutes, I starts to think back what the crap is my mum talking about? Someone broke into my car? AT 5AM?
Thinking of it, my heart starts beating fast and oxygen pumping up to my brain. I felt lost and wanted to know more about the thing that my mum told me. I starts to threw a lot of questions to my mum such as how,when and what? After that, I flee to see how bad is the condition of my car. I saw my left back seat window was lowered and small little triangle shape window was smashed.
My mum told me she had log a police report at morning 5 something, so I cannot touch anything on that car yet. She said the police will only come around 10AM. *Exasperated Sigh* What the hell is wrong with the police force in our country. I do understands that this is not a big case or involve someone who dies but still, a normal citizen who made a report, as a police force you should come over on timely manner. What if they caught the culprit which might not far away from our house? Riduculous bunch of useless crap! This is how they treated tax payer!
Oh yea... about the condition of my car... erm... *Thinking the best words to describe how the situation would like*. There are lots of small pieces glass scattered around my car seats. All the things on the left compartment under the dashboard was taken out and left untouched on front left seat as told by my mum. Back seat was force opened as the stealer try to find something valuable at my car rear. What a mess! @.@
Luckily I spent only RM165 to fix everything which some how still paid by my mum. What a bad and tiring day!
Monday, June 12, 2006
20 Hours Weekend Getaway!
After few hours nap... I feel refreshing... I took a bath and dinner, here am I now writing this blog of what I had did yesterday before I forget about all the details.
The day starts off at 10am. I'm awaken by my mom's high pitch voice which hurts my ears and immediately wake up with all stars circuling my head! As usual, I brush my teeth, wash my face, and go for a wee wee. Then I starts to search my wardrobes for something casual and when I'm thinking of the journey, I know I need something really comfortable hence must be in bright color so that I won't feel that hot under the sun.
When I'm done dressing up, I walk down and told my mum "I'm ready, let's go". Then I take my car key and start engine up. After a few minutes warming it up, I step on accelerator paddle and starts our journey of the day.
Hold on a minute, I forgot to mention where are we heading huh... and who is the 'we' that I mentioning... I'm actually going to visit my sister who living in Subang, Putra Heights, with my mum and younger brother. One person who is missing which is Kim. He needs to go office for training on the first half of the day, so he'll meeting us up in the afternoon. I presume everything is clear now and lets proceed.
While I'm driving in my car, conversation with my mum seems neverending. Erm, would not consider that as a conversation cause only my mum talking and I'm listening while my younger brother entertaining her. She seems like a bird chirping beside my ears and I feel really frustrated especially early in the morning. Of course 10:30am is not consider as wee hour of morning but for me, it's early for Saturday and Sunday.
After 45minutes, at last I arrived Sunway Pyramid. I hardly visit this shopping mall, well the reason is very obvious which I think one word 'FAR' describe the best! My brother and me weren't taken any breakfast that morning so we try to find a light breakfast before the movie. We went to Bread Story bakery shop bought different flavor of buns. My mum wanted an ice cream so I bought her a scoop of ice cream in cone. There's coffee table and silver metal chairs just behind the ice cream stalls. So we decided to have our breakfast there while my mum eating her ice cream just like a small girl. Then my sister calls and wanted to meet us at the same place.
After several minutes, my sister and her fiance finally arrived. So we queue for some snacks and drinks before walk in to the cinema. We watched "Over the Hedge" for almost 2 hours with joy and laughter.
We decided to go my sister's house after movie and window shopping at almost 3PM I think. Afer 20minutes, here we are at my sister's house. It's the first visit after my sister bought a sofa and television placed at living room. It's cozy and comfy. The new sofa is beige in color and it's L shape.
By 4PM, my mum suggest to have a little gambling session. My sister take mahjong set from her store room. We starts playing mahjong and ends at 5:30PM. Hehe... I won RM10 that day...
We had Steambot for dinner at one of the Restaurant in Puchong. Well. I can't remember the restaurant name again... I have short term memory lost problem. Sigh... Everyone was given a small pot for the steambot. Then you can put the food that you want into it and it's PRIVATE! It's totally based on your own preference. Our cheeck become redish when steam from boiling soup rushing to our face. My greedy brother took a lot of food and junk it all into his own pot. He ends up leaving the food that he not really likes on the pot and stuck his own rib with the food he likes so much. MAD!!!
The dinner ends at 8 something and my brother is rushing home for world cup match at 9PM. Ironically, Puchong traffic is jam and this is due to the bottleneck forms at interchange between Kesas and another route to Puchong Perdana I think. After 15minutes jam, we finally have a smooth journey back to our home sweet home.
I took some rest after arrived home. Then take bath and dress up to prepare to go Red Box Karaoke for another mad session with my friend Garry, Mavisse, Cyen, Lisa, and new friend Kar Wee and Kean Yau. Really not sure I spell their name correctly. Haha... We sang from 12AM until 4AM. Okay, that's it, really tiring, over my limit. Then after fetch Lisa and Cyen back to their sweet home, we meet Garry and Mavisse up at Samy corner for "Yum Cha" session. I think we got home around 6AM.
I jump onto my bed and knock out immediately. What a day... But I do enjoy it very very much!!!
The day starts off at 10am. I'm awaken by my mom's high pitch voice which hurts my ears and immediately wake up with all stars circuling my head! As usual, I brush my teeth, wash my face, and go for a wee wee. Then I starts to search my wardrobes for something casual and when I'm thinking of the journey, I know I need something really comfortable hence must be in bright color so that I won't feel that hot under the sun.
When I'm done dressing up, I walk down and told my mum "I'm ready, let's go". Then I take my car key and start engine up. After a few minutes warming it up, I step on accelerator paddle and starts our journey of the day.
Hold on a minute, I forgot to mention where are we heading huh... and who is the 'we' that I mentioning... I'm actually going to visit my sister who living in Subang, Putra Heights, with my mum and younger brother. One person who is missing which is Kim. He needs to go office for training on the first half of the day, so he'll meeting us up in the afternoon. I presume everything is clear now and lets proceed.
While I'm driving in my car, conversation with my mum seems neverending. Erm, would not consider that as a conversation cause only my mum talking and I'm listening while my younger brother entertaining her. She seems like a bird chirping beside my ears and I feel really frustrated especially early in the morning. Of course 10:30am is not consider as wee hour of morning but for me, it's early for Saturday and Sunday.
After 45minutes, at last I arrived Sunway Pyramid. I hardly visit this shopping mall, well the reason is very obvious which I think one word 'FAR' describe the best! My brother and me weren't taken any breakfast that morning so we try to find a light breakfast before the movie. We went to Bread Story bakery shop bought different flavor of buns. My mum wanted an ice cream so I bought her a scoop of ice cream in cone. There's coffee table and silver metal chairs just behind the ice cream stalls. So we decided to have our breakfast there while my mum eating her ice cream just like a small girl. Then my sister calls and wanted to meet us at the same place.
After several minutes, my sister and her fiance finally arrived. So we queue for some snacks and drinks before walk in to the cinema. We watched "Over the Hedge" for almost 2 hours with joy and laughter.
We decided to go my sister's house after movie and window shopping at almost 3PM I think. Afer 20minutes, here we are at my sister's house. It's the first visit after my sister bought a sofa and television placed at living room. It's cozy and comfy. The new sofa is beige in color and it's L shape.
By 4PM, my mum suggest to have a little gambling session. My sister take mahjong set from her store room. We starts playing mahjong and ends at 5:30PM. Hehe... I won RM10 that day...
We had Steambot for dinner at one of the Restaurant in Puchong. Well. I can't remember the restaurant name again... I have short term memory lost problem. Sigh... Everyone was given a small pot for the steambot. Then you can put the food that you want into it and it's PRIVATE! It's totally based on your own preference. Our cheeck become redish when steam from boiling soup rushing to our face. My greedy brother took a lot of food and junk it all into his own pot. He ends up leaving the food that he not really likes on the pot and stuck his own rib with the food he likes so much. MAD!!!
The dinner ends at 8 something and my brother is rushing home for world cup match at 9PM. Ironically, Puchong traffic is jam and this is due to the bottleneck forms at interchange between Kesas and another route to Puchong Perdana I think. After 15minutes jam, we finally have a smooth journey back to our home sweet home.
I took some rest after arrived home. Then take bath and dress up to prepare to go Red Box Karaoke for another mad session with my friend Garry, Mavisse, Cyen, Lisa, and new friend Kar Wee and Kean Yau. Really not sure I spell their name correctly. Haha... We sang from 12AM until 4AM. Okay, that's it, really tiring, over my limit. Then after fetch Lisa and Cyen back to their sweet home, we meet Garry and Mavisse up at Samy corner for "Yum Cha" session. I think we got home around 6AM.
I jump onto my bed and knock out immediately. What a day... But I do enjoy it very very much!!!
Sunday, June 11, 2006
Tiring Day
I had a tiring day yesterday as I was out for loads of activities in 20 hours a day and went back home at 6a.m. I'm really impressed with the energy I had yesterday. Today I'm a half-dead person laying on my bed without having any strength to even think what to write on this blog. I wanted to list down all the things I did yesterday but it seems I'm too exhausted to do so...
Going to my dreamland... ZzzZzzZZzzz... *Rejuvenating*
Going to my dreamland... ZzzZzzZZzzz... *Rejuvenating*
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